Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Missing Out and Chronic Illness

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Not being able to participate in aspects of life is a tough reality for many of us with autoimmune disease.  It is something that I'm definitely grappling with at the moment. There is a constant balance of trying to protect my health and at the same time manage other priorities.  I often struggle with the question: What is it actually possible to do without health consequences?

This upcoming weekend I am supposed to attend a family member's wedding across the country from where I live.  I have been pretty determined to attend and believed (or perhaps hoped) my health might actually be in a place where I could make the six hour flight across the country.  My husband and I still waited as long as we could to purchase the tickets.  We told the bride and groom that we couldn't guarantee our attendance, to hold off submitting our names for their count as long as possible, since there was always a chance that we might have to cancel at the last minute.

Everyone in the family has been rooting for us to come.  As background, I haven't been able to make a trip like that in at least five years and have missed almost all of our families' and friends' events that have required out of town travel over that time.  This one event holds real significance for me.  All my first cousins and their children will be in attendance and the last remaining relatives in the their 80s and 90s.

Things looked good last weekend.  I was confident that I would make it.  I was looking forward to the adventure...as well as the warmer weather.  However, within a mere forty-eight hours from announcing my intention to go to the wedding, things began to change.  My eye and the area surrounding it became red and started feeling painful.  My face began hurting as well.  My eye doctor fit me in immediately for an appointment yesterday, and just my luck, I have an eye infection.  I know from experience as Sjögren's patient who has had both a corneal ulcer and uveitis, that eyes are serious business.  Getting this infection under control and making sure it did not spread any further had to become my number one priority.  I also knew, as my doctor reminded me, that making a long distance trip with my eye compromised and my other health issues just didn't' make sense.  

While I know intellectually this is the right decision, I am definitely taking this turn of events particularly hard. I have handled most of the disappointments surrounding how my life has changed without getting too upset.  I have become very good at being thankful for the little things that I can do, as opposed to focusing on what I cannot.  I was thankful once I began being treated to have a day without severe neurological pain, to be able to just read an article in the newspaper, and have the energy to walk around the block or even go to the grocery story.  But now I am starting to expect more--and I don't want that to change.  I refuse to give-up on the idea that I will be able to work and participate in life with family and friends when there is so much that I want to accomplish.  I know that I will keep forging ahead despite these many twists, turns, and unexpected health challenges.

I have been coping by calling everyone in the family who will be there to catch up--letting them all know I will miss seeing them and how much I truly want to be there with them to celebrate.  Everyone has promised to send me real-time pictures of the festivities and I'm expecting play-by-play descriptions of all the events.  I trying to gently remind myself that the fact that I could consider even attending was progress.  There will be more happy occasions in the future and I will figure out a way to be at them.  

But I also think it is ok to mourn and just be sad that I am missing out on a momentous family occasion--and to feel keenly that it is isn't fair that having chronic illness has meant constant compromise, lifestyle modification, and putting many things on hold...while my friends and family are excelling in their careers and running marathons for fun.  I am not sure anyone can perfectly accept the limitations of these tough autoimmune diseases--and I think that there will unfortunately be other times when throwing up my hands and saying "THIS REALLY STINKS!!" might actually be the healthy thing to do.

Wednesday, February 19, 2014

The Challenge of Gluten and Corn Free Pasta


One the foods that I miss most from my pre-food allergy pre-gluten free life is pasta.   Especially during the cold winter months, I find myself wanting just a big comforting bowl of that gluten filled deliciousness. I have not had gluten at least knowingly since November of 2011.  That was when I had my last bowl of pasta.  It was delicious…and I was sick all night.

My craving for pasta didn’t disappear, but I knew I would have to find a different way to eat it.  I know there are many gluten free pastas available, but for me it’s not that simple; I also run into trouble with my corn allergy.  As far as I can tell corn seems to be a most common ingredient in GF foods.

Many people recommend rice pasta to me.  I do fine reaction-wise with plain rice ones, like Tinkayada, but they come out a little too mushy for me.  They don't compare to "real" pasta. I use them as noodles in soups, however I find myself disappointed when I try to build a meal around them. Eating it makes me miss my gluten eating days more.



It was hard to contain my excitement when I recently discovered my true GF, CF pasta substitute.  I saw a product at the market that I had never tried--Andean Dream Quinoa Pasta.  It really is a bit of a dream.  When I tried it, I knew this was a whole new level of GF pasta.  Its ingredients are simple quinoa and rice and no corn.  (They actually advertise that their products are both gluten and corn free.) The main difference between the Andean Dream and the rice pastas is that the texture is much more similar to how I remember regular pasta.  It actually tastes like al-dente pasta and it doesn't become gooey a few minutes after cooking.   The texture is just right and the taste is subtle so it doesn't over power whatever other ingredients you decide to add.  I've been making it with butter or olive oil and sautéed vegetables.

The true test is that this is the only GF pasta that my husband will eat.  Oh and I forgot to mention, it can be used for a mean macaroni and cheese.  

So I can now officially report that my two-year pasta problem has ended. For those of you with Celiac Disease or Gluten Sensitivity, what's your favorite GF pasta?



**Please note: I have no relationship with any companies whose products are mentioned in this or any other post.**

Thursday, February 6, 2014

Reasonably Well: Sjögren's and Cognitive Function

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Everyone should read Julia from Reasonably Well’s excellent post entitled Tufts Study: Despite Burden Sjögren’s Syndrome May Not Impede Function that discussed new research on Sjögren’s Syndrome and cognitive difficulties.   You can read the whole extremely informative post here.  I’m going to comment on some of my favorite parts below and add some of my own reactions.

The Tufts Study concludes that Sjogren’s patients despite their perception “appear to function at a level comparable to their healthier peers.”  This is obviously good news, but Julia addressed some of the potential flaws with the study and raises research questions for the future.

Starting with the issue of fatigue, Julia writes:

I noticed that the assessment of fatigue…was not located in the physical section but rather in the Mental/Emotional locale.  There were no physician evaluations of joint pain, pure neurological problems (as opposed to neuropsychiatric), pulmonary issues, renal problems….to name just a few well-documented extra glandular manifestations of Sjögren’s.

She goes on to say (I love this part).

Since fatigue is one of my most disabling symptoms of Sjs and I'm a bit touchy about labeling fatigue as an all in your head symptom, I found it interesting that elsewhere in the discussion section of this study, fatigue is included under the description of "neuropsychiatric problems".

Well, I must say I’m touchy about this too.  And isn’t their bias in the research if fatigue is classified as neuropsychiatric from the beginning?

And I have had a similar experience to Julia where as she writes that for her tired=stupid.  What a perfect equation. I completely relate.  When I’m having complete autoimmune exhaustion, I also have what I would call brain-fog. 

This idea also got me thinking.  Do studies need to include both disease activity and cognitive function? Would it be worth exploring whether “flares” have both cognitive and physical impacts?  And Julia also brings up another super super important point about study design:

This was not a longitudinal study. Study authors would have no data to support their discussion of length of disease related issues.

In another small controlled study on the subject conducted by doctors and psychologists, including the Director of the Penn Sjögren’s Center, Dr. Frederick Vivino, found significantly lower IQ scores and lower verbal memory scores for the Sjögren’s group (click here for the study). No statistically significant differences were found on concentration and processing speed, visual memory, or executive function.  Interestingly Tufts and the Penn Studies used different measures of cognitive function.  While the Penn study also clearly had its limitations with only 17 participants and it did not occur over a period of time, the authors tend to stay away from broad generalizations, and suggest more research including “correlating neuropsychological findings with neuroimaging.”

On the other hand, the abstract of the Study out of Tufts University concludes that "Sjögren's patients perceive deteriorated physical function over time, but they achieve a level of functioning comparable to controls despite the burden of their illness" (click here for the abstract). In my opinion, that language is a bit misleading. Making physical conclusions about a cognitive study makes little sense. 

Perhaps, if a rheumatologist who regularly evaluates patients and the glandular and extraglandular manifestations Sjögren's had been involved in the study, he/she would have taken other issues into account.

While it is always good to see new research on Sjögren’s, it’s also important that the authors identify the scope and limits of their research. 

Thanks Julia for your excellent post and bringing it to the attention of all us Sjöggies.

What did you think of the Tufts Study?  If you could suggest new research on Sjögren's, what would you focus on?